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funwithliquidnitrogen“Does this mole look weird?”
“Define weird.”
“You know. Like, cancerous.”
“I don’t think so, but then I don’t know what cancerous looks like.”
“I don’t either.”
“What about this one?”
“I think that’s a freckle.”
“What about this one?”
“Why don’t you go to the doctor?”
“That’s probably a good idea.”

So that’s how I ended up going to see a dermatologist for the first time in my life. I’m not sure how I avoided it for so long – I mean, even my DOG has been to a dermotologist (this is 1,000% true) – but I did. So it was with some trepidation that I made the appointment.

I was worried.

Would the doctor take one look and tell me it was already too late?
Would he make me feel self-conscious about my face?
Would he make me feel self-conscious about my skin?
Would he try to sell me some weird procedure to minimize something I’d never really noticed before but would now obsess about endlessly?
Why did I even go out in direct sunlight? I’ll bet vampires don’t need dermatologists.

When I was younger, I really did try to use sunscreen. Only there were a few times when it didn’t work. And by “didn’t work” I actually mean “I probably forgot to put it on or, alternately, thought SPF 0 was a completely valid and responsible choice.”

The most sunburned I ever got in my entire life was – ironically – at the beach with my parents. I seem to recall my mom telling me roughly a gazillion times growing up, “Put a shirt on! Don’t burn! Are you wearing sunscreen?” Only not that day. We weren’t allowed in the water because there was a shark parked just offshore, ostensibly waiting for a buffet lunch to present itself, so I fell asleep. For several hours. In direct sunlight.

To this day I’m not sure where my parents were during this episode. I have to assume I wandered off so as not to be tainted by their uncoolness (this was high school – my parents wouldn’t be cool again until my early 20s), because even they would have been hard-pressed to NOT notice my skin begin melting off my back.

I spent the next two days laying on my stomach in bed radiating heat like a small, painful and incredibly remorseful furnace. The gentlest breeze felt like molten sandpaper being dragged across my back. When I began peeling I thought my entire epidermal layer was going to come off at once and I’d end up walking around for weeks as an embarrassed skeleton.

I’d like to pretend that I’m far wiser now, but candidly I just don’t get to the beach as often.

Appointment day arrived. I was sitting on the examination table when the doctor walked in. He actually staggered in, waving his arms a little for balance. He looked like he just graduated from high school earlier that morning, and as he lurched forward to shake my hand he started talking in a high, nervous voice that was the very antithesis of every soothing word ever spoken by Morgan Freeman.

He reminded me of Agador Spartacus wearing shoes.

Don’t get me wrong. I’m fine with young doctors. What I need from my medical care practitioner is a calm demeanor, confidence, and decent control over their appendages. I like to think that this is entirely reasonable, especially from someone potentially doing things to my skin and possibly even my face.

We talked briefly about why I was there, and I pointed out two places I was worried about. After a closer look at one near my hairline, he grabbed a canister from a shelf and immediately power-sprayed liquid nitrogen directly into my forehead. “I’m going to freeze this,” he went on to explain in what may be the worst display of medical timing I’ve personally witnessed. I stared at him, mildly stunned. He put the canister down on a stool and peered closely at the new mini-glacier on my temple. “Looks good,” he decided.

He backed up and dropped onto the stool, causing the canister to fall and begin spraying clouds of liquid nitrogen across the floor until the exam room appeared to be one laser light show away from a dance club. It skittered and rolled as he attempted to subdue it without freezing either his hands or his exposed ankles. Or his face. I quickly pulled my legs onto the exam table and watched, fascinated – for once, I was the safest person in the room.

I was about to suggest that he drop a sheet over it when he made a final desperate grab, which turned out to be successful. I’d like to pretend I didn’t hear him mutter, “That was smooth,” just before instructing a nurse to prepare a needle to numb my side.

“Wait. What?”
“I’m going to numb your side.”
“Why, exactly?”
“There’s a mole there I want to get a sample of. It won’t hurt.”
I looked at him.
“Why are you numbing it if it won’t hurt?”
“Well, it won’t hurt initially,” he clarified. “It may be sore later.”
“How big of a sample do you need?!”
“I’m just going to scrape a little off.”
“Okay.” Warily.
I laid back down and tried to relax as he stuck my side.
Then stuck it again.
And again.
*stick stick stick*
“Hello?” Was he perforating it?
“Almost done.”
*stick stick stick*
“Done. Now let’s let this kick in.”

Everybody left.
Time passed.
Everyone returned.

“Can you feel this?” He poked my side.
“Okay.” To the nurse: “Scalpel.”
I sat up.
“Scalpel really?”
“Look, it’ll be fine. Just relax.”
Which is when he stabbed me.
“Oh, I guess that part wasn’t numb yet.”
“I thought you said you didn’t feel it.”
“I didn’t feel it when you poked me with your finger. Scalpels are a little sharper than fingers, you know.”
“Well hold still, I’m almost done.”
“Oh, look, I think I can get most of it off.”
“I’m good with keeping it – OUCH!”
“Done! Here, hold this and keep pressure on it. It should stop bleeding in a little while.”

The nurse applied several layers of bandage, still maintaining pressure. I’m almost certain she rolled her eyes apologetically at one point. Afterwards I got dressed and waited for the doctor to return to the exam room. Once again, he entered the room as if by accident. Reeling, he finally caught himself with the computer keyboard and began typing.

“Listen, are you happy with your skin?”
“I’m delighted with my skin. Couldn’t be happier.”
Uncertain pause.
“Yay, skin!”
“Because I can give you a prescription to help freshen it up.”
“I don’t even know what that means,” I said, slightly confused and possibly offended.
“Okay, well there’s another procedure I can offer you to minimize the look of fine lines.”
“I LOVE MY LINES. You have no idea how much I love those lines. Woohoo, lines! So do I have skin cancer or not?”
“We’ll know for sure in a few days.”
“Perfect. Can I leave now? Please?”
“I’ll want to see you back in a year.”

I’ll bet.

So it turns out I didn’t have skin cancer, which is an enormous relief for several reasons, the primary one being that I won’t ever have to see THAT guy again.

I’m beginning to lose a little faith in the medical profession, to be honest. It feels like every time I go in to speak with any specialist they’re trying to sell me an upgrade or to use some strange new procedure or instrument or prescription to fix something I never really considered broken.

I mean, is it weird that I’m fine with my skin the way it is? Can’t doctors wait for patients to ask about procedures to reduce the appearance of fine lines or age spots or faint forehead scars from the occasional curling iron burn? Shouldn’t they be trying to make patients feel better about themselves instead of worse?

I suppose, until that day comes, I’ll just have to be more careful with direct sunlight. And sunscreen. And sharks. And scalpels.

And, perhaps, with my choice of doctors.



I firmly believe that every one of us has something to offer, and that each of us can make a difference in this world. I also believe that it’s vitally important that we not take ourselves too seriously, enjoy life, and have fun.

This Post Has 6 Comments

  1. examorata

    Should you ever have a suspect spot you need to investigate in the future, I know a guy who doesn’t drop stuff and knows what he’s doing and stuff. I had basal cell carcinoma on my nose 2 years ago and he took care of it, well, without trying to sell me anything cosmetic at all.

  2. mickeygomez

    Tinu Thanks, Tinu! One bonus of having questionable eyesight is the fact my skin always looks great to me as long as I’m not wearing my glasses. #silverlining

  3. mickeygomez

    Danny Brown Stories like the one you share here are remarkable to me, and I truly wonder why this is happening. It used to be we had total confidence in our medical practitioners, and these days I feel like I have to do incredible amounts of research to maintain that same level of confidence. While I believe it’s my responsibility to educate myself, I didn’t get a degree in medicine.  That was an intentional decision on my part. Hoping you’re on the mend soonest!

  4. Tinu

    Danny Brown “Um.. see a doctor who can advise as opposed to ask?” lmao

  5. Tinu

    I’ve seen your skin. You’re good with liking it unfrozen, and I don’t remember lines. Love this post.

  6. Danny Brown

    I’m currently undergoing treatment that has me taking medication for 3 months. Prior to that, I had to take the same medication, at a lower dosage, for 4 weeks. After the 4 week period, I had to go back to the doctor for an update.
    I was asked if the meds had helped, I replied no. So the doctor asked me, “OK, so what would you like to do now?”
    I replied in the only way I saw fit: “Um.. see a doctor who can advise as opposed to ask?”
    The health profession is losing confidence in it, because of doctors like the one you share here, and others like him. No wonder health insurance is so high.
    Glad you’re OK, Mickster – blog reading would be pretty dull without you. 🙂

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